Jeff and I spoke the other day, and he wanted me to tell the story of a Ski trip we took as a family.
In our Chevy Carry-All, we packed up and headed north for a ski trip where the snow beckoned—in Colorado, Utah, and Idaho. Naturally, Heidi and Brutus came along since they traveled with us everywhere we went.
What happened in Aspen, Col was entirely unexpected. Typically, traveling as we do, we stay in small motels. They were cheap and clean, and we always snuck the dogs in through a side window.
Brutus and Heidi were trained not to bark when in a strange place. Heidi came into heat in Aspen, so we had to place her in a kennel. The kennel owner loved and treated her like his pet, so she ran free in the kennel and got pregnant. We did not find out until well after we got home.
While we skied Aspen, Jeff, and I came down the mountain. Lenette and Brutus were waiting for us, but when we skied to them, Brutus was unable to move as he was frozen to the turf. The fur on his rear end came off when we pulled him away. Poor little guy!
Sun Valley was next, and although we all stayed in one little room, the dogs included, we had a wonderful time. And the same in Utah. It did not matter where we went; we traveled as a family. We were and are family.
Yesterday was difficult For Jeff and me.
We spoke and cried over what we felt and see.
What we see, feel, and know is you are not with us anymore.
You are gone, and our hearts are broken as never before.
You were so special to both of us while alive.
How do we go on, how do we thrive?
We will, and we know you want us to continue to be.
Until we are together and each other we see.
Time might heal the pain we both feel. Maybe yes and maybe no, your loss to us so real.
I feel so close to Lenette this day.
It is also true I miss her every moment in every way.
I feel her presence and that she watches over me.
I wish for more than presence but that cannot be.
I want to be with her, is there more I can say?
But she wants me to live, to contribute each day.
It is what we both have done, and each in our own way.
I miss and love her and for me it is bad.Since I can do nothing more than wait, I am sad.